Weekly Weigh In

I was right, today's weigh in sucked and it's my own damn fault.

185.0

I'm really disappointed with myself.  I could have done it this week and I should have!  If I had showed just a little self control on Tuesday and Wednesday of this week I would have had a decent loss of a pound I'm sure.  I really wanted to be out of the 180's by the end of this month, but it's not going to happen :-(  

I could probably come up with a million excuses, but I'm not going to because the simple truth is: If I had more self control on my food I wouldn't have had a problem.

I really need to work on not letting other's influence my eating.  And portion CONTROL!  I need to stop eating because it tastes good.  I need to only eat because I'm hungry.

This is one of those times where I would normally eat my disappointment, which would lead me to being depressed cause I did that, and the depression would lead to more eating which leads to less exercise and then I'd give up.

NOT THIS TIME.  I CAN'T.  I WON'T!  I'm only 10lbs away from what I was on my wedding day and I WANT IT!  I WILL HAVE IT!

I CAN DO THIS!

Have I convinced you yet?  I'm really trying to psych myself up here. 

Eat Healthy, Get Fit, Sleep, Repeat

Dread

Yes, I'm dreading tomorrow's weigh in.  I shot this week's work all to hell yesterday.  And yes I'm right back on the wagon today, but after the sodium and carb infested day on Wed and my inability to eat normal portions of food yesterday, I'm not expecting the scale to move at all tomorrow!

Especially since I didn't get a work out in this morning (I'm really not happy about this and it wasn't my fault) and not being able to squeeze it in tonight since B is out of town and it's bowling night.  It's gonna be a get home, pray I can get dinner made and the kids fed before I have to leave for bowling.  Oh yeah and me fed too so that I'm not eating crap at the bowling alley!

Wish me luck.

Pushing, Underwear, Sodium & Carbs

Like the title?  It's really just some random stuff that was running through my mind this morning as I was working out.  Pick your chin up off the ground, it's not that amazing that I did a full work out!

Pushing...
For some reason this week I've decided I want to push myself with my runs.  The interval running I've been pushing myself with the interval running I've been doing since 6mph is FAST for me.  But I didn't feel like I was pushing enough.  So yesterday instead of intervals I wanted to see if I could run at 5mph for an extended time.  I did it!  12 minutes at 5mph.  I'm pretty sure I was only going 4.5 last time ran for any extended amount of time.  Then this morning I decided to go for 5.5mph.  Yeah that was a little fast, but I did it for 5 minutes! and then I continued on with my normal interval and felt better when I was done.  And also my pace was under 12 minutes!!!  My goal is to have an average pace of around 11 so since I plan on sticking with just a 20 minute run for a while I'm going to keep working on my pace.

Underwear...
I'm having issues.  Seems my ass is shrinking!  Sounds great, but it means my underwear is getting lose in the ass, which means that when I run it moves around, scrunches up and whatever else I can't quite find the words to explain.  Now, I have underwear that still fit, but I get dressed for the day after my shower, which is after my morning workout.  Like most people (I'm making an assumption here) I wear the same underwear until I get in the shower again the next morning.  So I end up with issues.  Just had to vent about that...

Sodium & Carbs...
SUCK!  I ate so good yesterday!  I had over 1000 calories left for dinner and all I had was a seasoned pork chop and some stuffing.  OK, it was probably 2 servings of stuffing, but either way, I had 1000 cals left (not counting my exercise cals).  Plus I drank almost 100oz of water.  What did I wake up to this morning, a gain on the scale...  Then I remembered telling my mom the chops were a little salty tasting.  So yeah, I have a love hate relationship with sodium and carbs right now.

Now that you've read all my rambling, get off your ass and do something!

In My Head

So apparently the post I wrote yesterday was only in my head... For some reason I honestly thought I posted yesterday.  The post was something like this....

Back at it... I picked up right where I left off.  As tired and miserable as I am, right now my exercise and eating is the only thing I have control over, so I'm going to own that bitch!

Today, well I'm still owning her, just not as forcefully as yesterday.  Baby girl was up up from around 10 (I think) til almost 1 this morning.  I got up at 4:30 and still did my run.  Rather than doing the interval training I have been doing with Workout 1, I decided to just do the warm up, run the 12 minutes at 5mph and the cool down.  I had to push myself through my exhaustion, but in the end I did it and probably could have gone farther if I had the time.  I was also happy to see that I had my fastest 1K ever this morning according to Nike+.

It's amazing what a little work out and watching what you eat can do in just a day.  I was down 1.6lb in just a day! *Don't give me shit for weighing myself daily, right now it gives me motivation*

Now stop reading about my small successes and go have your own!

Weigh In - Memory Loss

Well I didn't even want to post this morning.  As I said yesterday I knew it wasn't a good week.  Secretly I was praying for one of those, "it wasn't as bad as I thought" mornings, but it was...

185.2

That's a gain of 2.2lbs.  I accept full responsibility with no excuses besides I used to many all week.  Normally this is where I'd fall off the wagon.  I haven't worked out in a week now and haven't paid much attention to what I've been eating.  At least not the way I should be.  And I certainly haven't drank all the water I should.  But starting TODAY! I am going to do better!  I'm going to plan my meals better, I'm going to drink more water and I'm going to GET OFF MY ASS!  Who's with me?

Ok, so I might not actually exercise today since I still feel like ass, but I am going to be much more conscious about what is going in my mouth and try to plan my meals for next week.  And the water has already started flowing, even though what I really want is some nice hot creamy coffee to soothe my throat.

I hate being sick, my mind just gets all cloudy and I can't remember shit.  I had a plan as to what I was going to post about today along with my weight and I can't for the life of me remember what it was now.

I hate that puckered look cause their too big!

On the plus side, I've had to wear a belt all week because the clothes that fit me just 3 weeks ago are falling off!  See that big red number up there doesn't mean much, just means I need to be careful.

Have a healthy weekend everyone!

My Turn

Well now I've got this damn cold.  So much so that I almost didn't get out of bed at all this morning.  I don't remember hitting snooze for a half hour and I certainly don't remember B taking Lilli out of the bed last night. I passed out at 7:30 last night and that was it.

I'm not looking forward to getting on the scale tomorrow morning.  I'm pretty sure there is going to be a gain :-(  It's my own fault though,  I could have tried harder this week.  I could have made myself work out when I got home since I couldn't in the morning.  I could have made myself bring a salad or sandwich for lunch every day.  I could have made better choices, but I didn't and tomorrow I will step on that scale and I will post my weight...

That is if I can get my ass out of bed...

Not Much

Not much to write about today since B slept on the couch again, which meant more sleep no work out for me!

I really need to find motivation in the morning when I need it and can use it, not while I'm sitting here at my desk at work!

So this morning I updated My Story.  You should check it out.  I added a bunch of pictures.

I also added some new inspiration to the Inspiration page!

This and That.

This post is going to be a little random. I'm exhausted and my mind just isn't putting things together.

First I want to start with a big "hey y'all" to my new followers!  Hope I don't bore you too much and maybe even inspire you a little (probably not with this suck ass post though).

If I'm honest I could have eaten better this weekend. Wing dip, pizza and peach cobbler doesn't add up to pounds lost :-(

Neither does my lack of exercise.  Although, my arm and ab muscles are still a little sore from having to sleep sitting up with a 16.5lb baby in them for 2 nights and 2 days earth of naps.

Which led to yesterday's lack if exercise because I was so exhausted. 5 hours of sleep in 2 days just isn't enough.

And now the hubster has a man cold. Ok its a cold and he really feels like shit so he's sleeping in the couch so he doesn't get anyone else sick, but really I can do without the moaning every 30 seconds. Anyway, this led me to not working out this morning too because I work out in the livingroom where he was sleeping.  Not that I was disappointed since baby girl had me up 2 hours past my bed time.

So there you have, this girl needs a swift kick in the ass!

Week 19 Weigh In

A little recap of this week…

Sunday I ate like a pig, shoveling greasy, cheesy, hot sausage dip yumminess into my mouth uncontrollably.  I even sat across the room from it and it was beckoning me… really, it was saying “Brandi, eat me… eat me… just one more bite…”  Yeah not my finest moment, but damn it was good!

Monday was a hectic day and besides having a second burger (no buns) I didn’t do too bad with my eating.

Tuesday was a shitastic day and although I brought a nice healthy lunch to work, I let my mom treat me to Mexican, it was so yummy and I ate too much, but damn, we hadn’t gone out for Mexican in forever!  Then it was pork chops and potatoes for dinner with some really yummy sautéed veggies.

Wednesday I was a good girl, but

Thursday, well Thursdays are tough.  I drank 7, yes that s-e-v-e-n 24oz glasses of water!  

I use a dry erase marker to mark every time I finish a glass.

 And then I followed it up with at least a pitcher of beer at bowling last night.  Oh and did I mention we had spaghetti for dinner too?

What did I do right this week you ask, well I got my ass out of bed and did Workout 1 EVERY DAY!  Including today even though when I woke up my brain said “you are tired, go back to bed, your head hurts, go back to bed.”  I refused!  When I did my run, the little devil on my shoulder said “if you can’t run the 2 minutes at 6, it’s ok, you’re a little off this morning.” But that sweatband, spandex wearing (think 80’s workout clothes all hot pink and neon yellow) said “Bitch run!  That was last night and this is today!”  and guess what, she was right!  I did my entire workout to the max and man can my muscles feel it!  That’s right, I have muscles, muscles you can see!

Yes I know they still need work...

So anyway, my hard work paid off…

Down another 1.4!  It dawned on me today that I’ve over half way to my goal now!  And only 3lbs away from a number I haven’t seen in almost 5 years! 

Feeling good about myself this week.
My "feeling skinny"outfit (in yellow)
is now my "feeling fat" outfit!

Slacker?

Yes and no...

Yes I've been slacking with blogging...
Yes I've slacked on my eating...
No I haven't slacked on my exercise...

I'm down, not really weight related, but I do think it's being effected.  Maybe I should have titled this blog "Eating my Moods and Emotions..."  Today I am regretting how relaxed I was with my eating on Sunday, the last two days wouldn't seem so bad if I hadn't been so bad Sunday.  Anyway, I can't dwell on it because I've already consumed the yummy ass fattening food.  I still have a chance at maintaining this week.

I've created my own routine though and it seems to be working pretty well.  I've been a little sore most days.  For Reference purposes I've going to call it Workout One, cause well, it's the first workout I've come up with on my own.

Itty Bits of Balance

I started by using this Running Workout.  Then I realized that I run at a snails pace so I had to modify it for myself.

Workout One
20 Minute as follows: Holy crap does this get my heart going!

Strength:

Bicep Curls in the squat position - I get in the squat position as low as I can. Feet hip width apart making sure the knees never go over the toes.
Holding this position I do 12 bicep curls.  Arms down at sides, palms facing forward, raise palms to shoulders, lower.


Raised Bicep Curls in the Sumo squat position - "sumo squat" is shown to the left, then I raise my arms parallel with the floor, palms up and bring weights to my shoulders and back to the starting position, repeat 12 times.



Butterfly with a held pelvic curl (butt lift) - Lay on the floor, knees bent, feet flat on the floor.  Raise your butt up in the air and hold.  Tighten the glutes and abs.  Hold arms out to the sides, palm up.  In a steady motion bring weights together over your chest and then back to starting position.  Repeat 12 times.

Bench Press with help pelvic curl (butt lift) - Stay on the floor in the pelvic curl position.  Keeps arms out to the sides, bent 90 degrees at elbows, palms facing your feet.  Push weights straight up and return to starting position.  Repeat 12 times.

Bicycle Crunch - 30 total (15 each side)

Repeat Strength 3 times.

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Life in Bloom: It's All About You - Part 2

Weigh in and Shred Results

Since last night was the first night if bowling I was really nervous about getting on the scale this morning.   We all know what beer can do to a weigh in. Although I was good last night, drank water through the 3rd game.

Drum roll please... 184.4!  That's right, my biggest loss in over a month!  And I'm now down a total of 30 lbs!  Yes I'm a happy girl today.

Now for my shred results...

I've been nervous to take pics. I know my clothes are fitting better and I'm shrinking out of some is them, but I didn't know how noticeable it would be. So what so you think?

I also need to complain a little. My husband sucks with a camera!  Hence the horrible quality of pics above  Which make him being the one to take my pictures frustrating to me. It also frustrates me that he doesn't understand why they are so important to me. Important we stand in the same spots and use the same zoom and such. I hate having to adjust the size of the pics so that my body is the same height in them.

I'm also thinking about adding an exercise journal tab. Would my wonderful readers be interested in knowing what exercises I'm doing on a daily basis?

Now get off your ass and burn some calories! 

Pinspired Dinner

The Pin

Buffalo Chicken Casserole

My Creation

I made this meal a 6 serving dish and each serving only had 314 calories and plenty of flavor!

You can find the full recipe here

I liked that the chicken isn't pre-cooked and prep was minimal besides grating the potatoes.

The only thing I might change next time is using noodles instead of potatoes, or maybe pre-cooking the potatoes some.

If you'd like to follow my me on Pinterest, you can find me here.

Form

I can’t believe Thursday is going to be day 30 of the 30 Day Shred!  This is the first workout with a time line that I think I’ve actually stuck with.  Even the C25K in the end I didn’t do that last 2 weeks of training, but still ended being able to run the 30 minutes.  And yes, it may have actually taken me 36 days, but that’s besides the point.

Saturday I got so busy around the house I actually forgot to work out.  I know sounds crazy, but by the time I realized I hadn’t worked out yet, it was bed time.  I spent the entire day going through my clothes in the closet and cooking.  Lots of up and down, on and off.

Sunday I busted my ass at the workout.  I pushed myself and felt good about it, I was weak when I was done.  But as the day went on my shoulder got sore and yesterday it felt like it was on the verge of either being a pulled muscle or a pinched nerve again.  I didn’t want to risk it.  Plus my arms still felt like jello.  B reminded me that you can push yourself too hard and that’s not good either.

So today I slowed myself down and focused on my form.  I hadn’t really been focusing so much on form as I was trying to push myself to get the most calories I could out of the workout.  This morning though I realized more of my muscles actually felt effected.  I’m wondering if my overall results would have been better if I had focused more on my form than on my ability to keep up.  I’m hoping my results are going to be better than what I think they are from seeing myself from day to day in the mirror.

In other “form” words, I’m not so embarrassed to wear form fitting clothes anymore.  In other words, I actually HAVE a form other than round!  The 3 adults I saw this morning on my way to work (hubby, sitter 1 and sitter 2) all complimented me and said some variation of “You look good today.”  This pleased me.  I haven’t really dressed up for work in quite some time, although since coming back after Laney was born my dress has been more professional that hoodies and jeans.

It's hard to see but the skirt has small white and brown lines in it.