Monday, October 29, 2012

Moving On

It seems like its been much longer than 5 months since I started this blog.  It seems even stranger to be saying this is going to be the last post.

But this is not the end!  I'm just moving... And I'm really hoping everyone follows me over to Mama's Losing It.  All of my posts from this blog has been merged with my posts from Dreaming of Baby.  I will continue to post about my weight loss journey, including my weekly weigh ins and exercise, along with my family life and parenting.

So please head on over to Mama's Losing It. and check out my first post A New Beginning surprise, surprise it is weight loss oriented!

Friday, October 26, 2012

Weekly Weigh In

    Well I think this is going to be my last Weekly Weigh in on this blog, but more about that in a minute…

I didn’t really know what I was expecting this week on the scale, but it certainly wasn’t what I saw…


That’s right, a gain of 2.8lbs.  I really don’t think it’s all actual fat, but more water weight.  Still, it’s not good.  I’m not happy about and it makes my emotional status from the last week even worse.

My emotions have been up and down.  I have felt discourage and defeated and then felt accomplishment and pride.  I’ve felt tired and moody and then excited and energized all in the same day.  It’s been a roller coaster of a week and this morning was just an awful end to that.  I was exhausted when I got up, but I did get up, I did put on my workout clothes and my running shoes.  I did my warm up, ran less than a minute and gave up.  I walked a few minutes and then felt like it was pointless and shut’er down.  I stood there leaning on the treadmill fighting with myself.  Asking myself why it is so hard today? Why can’t you push yourself?  What the hell is wrong with your mood, you know you’ll feel better if you run?

But I just couldn’t do it.  I lost the battle this morning.  Although I feel like crap inside today, I think I look pretty good outside (besides my hair, mad do I need to get it done).
I look better in this dress now than when I bought it!

I have decided that this weekend is being dedicated to 2 things.  1. My disaster of a house and 2. Making a meal plan for a week with extra meal ideas for a month.  

On Monday I will start tracking EVERYTHING again.  I need to, it’s how I started and it worked!  Hopefully while making out my meal plan I can write down the calories per serving of each so when it comes to tracking it’s just a matter of actually measuring the food.

I might all have a few dates with Jillian every week again.  I want to keep running, but I need to get more strength training in there.  I need to work on the core muscles harder.

As for this being my last weigh in on this blog… It’s because as of Monday I will be posting at  Feel free to head on over and take a peak.  I’m sure it will be changing some in the months to come, but I’m very excited to have it up and running.  In addition to writing about my weight loss, I will be writing about my family life, my kids and life in general.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Catching Up

I wish I could say I haven't been slacking, but the truth is I have.  Not intentionally, but some of it I have been completely aware of and done nothing to fix it.

Yesterday I hit a low.  After a night of drinking too much (I may or may not have expelled everything Sunday morning) and not eating healthy at all for 2 days I was really down on myself.  I didn't get to run Monday or Tuesday because the baby was up to eat once again at my run time.  But now all of a sudden it was taking 45 minutes to get her back to sleep.

I don't know why I drink.  I mean yeah I have fun when I'm doing it, but I always feel like crap about it and tend to get depressed for a few days after.  Yesterday when the hubby asked what was wrong I told him I just need a run, some sort of exercise.  There is more that could fix my mood, but it wouldn't be as quick as a good run or workout.

Well I got my run in this morning!  And the baby slept the whole time!  I think it's the longest run I've had in a while!

 I was very happy to see that even with not running for 4 days my pace wasn't effected and neither was my endurance.  I think I actually had more endurance today than last week.  Maybe it was just all the steam I was letting off?

I'm so happy to see that I'm averaging a 10:30 mile (the first mile had a 3 minute walk warm up).  I'm just happy to be able to run a 5k now.  Makes me wonder how I would actually do on pavement.  Maybe one of these weekends I'll try and find some where to run.  My house isn't exactly located in a friendly running area.

Today I'm feeling good.  I hope I get to run again tomorrow!

Friday, October 19, 2012

Weekly Weigh In

Well, let's get right to it...

I'm not all that pleased with this number.  I mean really, I couldn't lose another .1 to see that 179.9?  Oh well, it's going to be a good day anyway!

I had a great run this morning...

This is a pace I feel comfortable with and it would actually be better I didn't do a warm up and cool down.  I have to that early in the morning though.  This morning I was wishing I could run outside.  To feel like I'm going somewhere.  To really have my thoughts to myself and concentrate on just running, but it is what it is and for now this is what I have.  

Plus last night I had my highest consistent bowling scores.  I've been pretty steady at the 370 series scores.  Not stellar by any means, people aren't lining up to have me on their team, but when I started 2 years ago I could barely make a 300 series.  Well last night I had my first 400 series!  It was a 453 and my scores were consistent! 151, 161, 141.  Consistency it a big problem for me.  And I thought it was pretty neat they were all a difference of 10.

Now why am I really excited?   It's Sister's Weekend!  What is Sister's Weekend you ask?  It's a weekend where my MIL, her sister and SIL and her daughter and a family friend all go up to a cabin sit around in our pajamas, drinking beer, eating junk and watching movies.  It's every mom's dream!  I'm really gonna have to work my ass off next week.  The planned food: chicken wing dip, macaroni and cheese, ribs, cake balls, pumpkin truffles, breakfast casserole, spiced (rum) cider.  Part of me says take some healthy food, the other part says why bother?  We'll see...

Hope everyone has as good a weekend planned as I do!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


I finally did it this morning. I got my ass out of bed, although I was freezing, put on my running clothes, and shoes and got on the treadmill.

It was a rough one today.  I knew it would be since I haven't run in almost a week.  Plus I forgot my water glass at home yesterday so I was dehydrated.  Boy was I right.  That dip is where I had to walk for a few minutes.  I can normally run through the side pain and it goes away, but this time it moved straight to my abs around my sternum and was SHARP, almost take your breath away sharp.  I had some water while I walked and got back at it.

And because I went at a slower pace (4.7) today I decided for the last 5 minutes I'd bump it up to 5.  I hate feeling like I want to keep going when I finish.  Makes me feel like I should have pushed harder.  Not that I wasn't sweaty and all, but if I can keep going, I want to do it.  Maybe tomorrow I'll try for the 3 miles at 5 again.  You know since I remembered my water today!

So I decided to step on the scale just to see how much damage my lack of exercise and water has done and I was surprised to find I'm at .4lb less than I was on weigh in day.  It has me motivated to be strong the next few days.  179 is so close I can taste it!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

What's Up?

Ugh what is up with me?  I can't get my ass out of bed.  Yesterday Lillian woke up at 3.  Yes 3 and stayed awake.  She kept asking me to cuddle and when I tried to get up it was "where are you going?" so I stayed with her even though I didn't get any sleep.

Today I have no idea what happened.  I had my alarm set for 3:30, but when I woke up and actually looked at the clock it was 4:50.  Could I have really hit snooze that many times without realizing it?

I'm mad at myself and confused.  How could I have been so proud of myself last Thursday and now not be motivated enough to get my ass out of bed.  I want to see 179 so bad this week, but at this rate I'll be lucky to stay at 180!
I MUST get my ass outta bed tomorrow!!!

Monday, October 15, 2012

Japanese Choclate

First off it's soooo yummy!

It really is smooth!
Individually wrapped
I really don't know which I like better!
And this is how close they leave it to my desk!
 I've done good, in the 5 days it's been here I've only had 6 pieces!

Friday, October 12, 2012

Weekly Weigh In

Only 3 more weeks and I will be half way to my goal of losing all this weight in 1 year.  I'm happy to say that I'm currently 3lbs past half way in the weight department.  Problem is, it's only going to get harder.  But that's Ok, if it were easy, everyone would be fit.

So here's this morning's date with the scale...

Down another 1.6lbs!  I can't wait to see the 170's next week!  I haven't been in the 170s since my honeymoon 5 years ago! I told the hubby about it this morning and he said "Wow, you're gonna catch me, I might actually have to exercise."  (He is at 176)
I told him "You bet your ass I'm gonna catch you! And run right past without looking back!"

Last night was bowling, which pretty much always means unhealthy eating and beer.  Well, yesterday morning was so motivational that I got a pizza and a LARGE salad for me.  I had the one smallest piece of pizza and my salad before leaving, only had ONE BEER (yeah don't know how I did that) and a small slice of pizza at bowling.  I was all about accomplishment yesterday!  Not so much today...

This morning's run wasn't any where near as motivating as yesterday's.  I almost didn't get up.  But I did, And I started to run, but my whole body felt like jello.  My muscles were sore and worn out from yesterday's run.  Driving home from work last night my thighs ached just driving.  So I walked for a mile this morning and called it quits.  Hey, it's better than nothing... And it took me a long time to get over that "All or nothing" attitude.

Have a good weekend my Peeps!  Get up, get out and get some exercise!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Skinny Jeans

I want to start off this post with a big thanks to Jenn for her post on Just Jenn yesterday.  She totally motivated my run this morning and I feel great!

My plan from yesterday worked!  I had my ass out of bed at 4 and ready to run by 4:10!  I literally had 2 seconds logged on the treadmill when Laney woke up.  I went, I fed her and oh so thankfully got her back to sleep by 4:30.

Since I knew the bottles and lunch were done I planned to run for 30 minutes.  I did a 3 minute warm up walk and bumped the pace up to 5mph.  It felt good to be moving.
Until about the 10 minute mark.  I was getting tired, a little winded and had that ache in my side.  I took a sip of water and said you can stop when you reach 3 miles or 30 minutes whichever comes first.
Over the next 10 minutes I got down on myself.  Why is this so hard?  Has my lack of exercise really done this much damage to my body?  I know I can do this!
When the 20 minute mark hit I felt like I was dying.  I wanted to stop.  I scolded myself: NO! You have to go at least another 5 minutes, then you can count the cool down as part of your 30 minutes. (In reality I haven't even run a full 20 minutes in probably 2 months).
The next 5 minutes I kept looking at my wedding picture (strategically placed next to the treadmill) and thinking, I've almost got you(only 7lbs away).  I'd look at the time and count down the minutes.
And when that clock hit 25:00 I said: You just did 5 minutes, you can do 5 more.  You aren't gonna puke or fall over, keep going...
And guess what?  I DID IT! And then continued with a 5 minute cool down.  I was actually surprised I didn't have runner's high, but I did and still do feel completely accomplished and proud of myself.  Especially after seeing this when logging in to Nike+ this morning...

That's right, I ran a 9:20 mile and finished a 5K in just over 31 minutes!  The last mile sucked, but it was still my fastest and my fastest EVER!  So once again Thank You Jenn!  

And after all that my my lame post about my First Skinny Jeans Ever seems kinda lame!

My legs still aren't perfect (I'll probably never think they are), but I have some confidence back!  The compliments on my outfit yesterday really helped.  I still have a little muffin top in these size 15s! But it won't be long and it will be gone.  I can't wait to take the next pic when they are baggy!

Maybe tomorrow I'll touch on the color of clothes...

PS - I pushed myself so much on my run this morning, the muscles in my arms and my abs were sore from keeping form!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Times are Changing...

It just amazes me how much having kids can totally screw things up...

I don't really mean that in a bad way, I'm just getting frustrated.  Kids have this unbelievable way of realizing a routine is figured out and starts actually working well, and then they need to switch shit up...

For instance our schedule had been working perfectly for almost a month (as long as Laney isn't up all night) where she goes to bed around 7:30, I feed her once around midnight 1am, then she sleeps til 5:30 or so.  This meant my alarm went off at 3:30am, I hit snooze til almost 4am and I was up and on the treadmill by 4:15.  I'd get at least a 20 minute run before doing my cool down of preparing lunch and bottles for the day.

Well the last few days Laney has decided that she likes getting up about 4:30 rather than 5:30.  And it didn't matter what time she last ate.  Monday I at least got in a 15 minute run, but yesterday and today she woke up just as I was getting ready to get on the treadmill.

There is no way in hell I'm getting up earlier to work out.  Especially if I can't go to bed any earlier and there's no guarantee I'm going to get to sleep through the night.

This post could be full of excuses, but it's not going to be.  The fact is, I need to figure out a new routine to get things back in gear.  The only "excuse" I find even remotely acceptable is not getting enough sleep.  The fact is I just can't function on less that 6 hours of sleep, especially if it's consistently only 6 hours.  My body tends to need 7-8 or I'm falling asleep at my desk.

So my plan of attack for tonight is to get my lunch and bottles done so that I have an extra 15-20 minutes in the morning to do some sort of exercise.

Along with the changing theme, my clothes are changing too... I bought this last week, but was too self conscious to wear it...

Today I bit the bullet because I had to look professional.  Hooker boots always say professional, don't they?
I've actually had several compliments today and it feels good :-)

I did realize that I need to work on my sweater options in my closet though.  I love the way sweaters look, hate the way they feel.  I need to find some nice (cheap) sweaters that are cozy and not scratchy.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

It's Going to Happen...

I’ve talked about doing this before and I’ve been thinking about it a lot. I’ve decided I’m definitely going to be merging my blogs in the near future.

 There are many reasons for doing this, but the main reason is that both blogs have a lot to do with each other. I can’t talk about my weight loss journey effectively without talking about my life and family. And my weight loss journey is a huge part of my life with my family. Plus the reality is, it’s a pain in the ass to keep up with 2 blogs and think of 2 different things to right about every day. Let alone find the time to write 2 blogs in a day. 

My plan is to take the posts from both blogs and merge them into one (I’ve read it can be done). Then continue with new posts that some days may be about weight loss, some days family and kids and possibly even both.

 My question for my wonderful followers… Any suggestions for a new blog name? I feel like the title of the blog should incorporate family and fitness, but I can’t think of anything I really like. Something as simple as Fit Mommy would work, I just don’t think that really “fits” right now, it’s a status I’m trying to achieve though! And if you have any suggestions on a host to use I’m all for hearing them. I like blogger, but I know wordpress can be good too. Anyone have any other hosts, or reasons why they like more than the other?

I hope everyone sticks around through the change….

Friday, October 5, 2012

Weekly Weigh In

Finally... This proves that you can do this without actual exercise.  Though I'm not sure why you'd want to cause if you don't have tone muscle you can be thin and still look like crap.

Anyway, here it is...

I can't even explain how happy I am to finally have a loss (worth being happy about) and have it be my new lowest weight!  I'm hoping my girls stay healthy and I can get some sleep next week so I can maybe get out of the 180's.  I'm going to make my goal 175 by Halloween, but if the amount of sleep I've been getting (last night was the most all week at 5 hours, with 3 interruptions) continues I'll take any loss I can get!

I really just can't wait to get some exercise (besides walking a baby around).  My body feels neglected.

Speaking of neglected, my morning was so off that the horrible mom I am forgot to pack diapers for the baby (the girls are with my MIL instead of sitters today) so I had to stop to get a package.  Then as I'm walking into work I notice I'm wearing these...

Totally forgot to change my shoes before leaving the house this morning...TGIF!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Go Me!

Yes I am proud of this picture. 6 months ago I would have eaten the whole damn thing and thought nothing of it.  But this is where I stopped this time! 

PS - about half a cup of rice went to my daughter and not in my mouth too!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

The Crap Shoot Of Life

I had all intentions of turning things around this week.  And my intention was to start on Saturday.  *Notice the use of the word intentions*  Since I was a single mom Saturday, things didn’t really pan out.  I was still feeling the effects of the depression from Friday (which a nice long run would have done wonders for) and both girls got up at the crack ass of dawn.  Really, they were both up by 7am, and yes as much as I want this, I’m not getting my ass out of bed before 6am on a Saturday or Sunday.

Then plans changed drastically.  I was supposed to watch my 11 and 2 year old cousins while my aunt and uncle attended a banquette for my mom’s pool and poker leagues.  Turns out one of the kids wasn’t feeling well.  So mom, wonderful mom that she is, offered to buy me drinks if I could find a sitter.  After several hours of trying, I came up empty handed.

Then it was Pocca (my sister, Monica) to the rescue!  She wasn’t feeling up to going out so she drove all the way home from school to watch the girls for the night so I could go out.  She’s my hero!

I had a blast!  I can honestly say I was the best looking girl in the bar, except for the one 16 year old that came in to pick up her mom.  Many of the people I hadn’t seen since having baby number one.  All the compliments I received were awesome and so welcomed, I don’t think you could have punched the smile off my face!  Here I am enjoying a treat at the end of the night…

Sunday brought on Football, where I could have eaten better, but it was pretty much all I ate all day so I didn’t really care, plus I was a little hung over.  I was happy to get a nap during the game though.

And then the real shit storm started.  Laney was up most of the night Sunday night.  I didn’t get one straight hour of sleep.  She was up when my alarm went off at 3:30 and she was still up when I normally start my workout at 4 and still up again when I’m normally showering at 5.  Needless to say I didn’t work out, or shower…  I did take her to the doctor Monday, but Monday night wasn’t the best either.  Although I did at least get to sleep in my bed for an hour straight.  I didn’t get up to work out and then woke up freaking out at 5:50 because I fell asleep feeding her at 4:30 (after turing my alarm off) and only had 30 minutes to get out the door.  Last night was a little better, but by 2am she was screaming out every half hour or so trying to comfortable.  Yeah, no workout today either.  I’m running on fumes and wondering if this little story here is even going to make sense when I’m done.  And honestly I’m not going to go back and read it, I might fall asleep right here if I do.

So here’s to hoping for more sleep tonight and the strength to get my ass out of bed in the morning…

Friday, September 28, 2012

Weekly Weigh In

I was right, today's weigh in sucked and it's my own damn fault.
I'm really disappointed with myself.  I could have done it this week and I should have!  If I had showed just a little self control on Tuesday and Wednesday of this week I would have had a decent loss of a pound I'm sure.  I really wanted to be out of the 180's by the end of this month, but it's not going to happen :-(  

I could probably come up with a million excuses, but I'm not going to because the simple truth is: If I had more self control on my food I wouldn't have had a problem.

I really need to work on not letting other's influence my eating.  And portion CONTROL!  I need to stop eating because it tastes good.  I need to only eat because I'm hungry.

This is one of those times where I would normally eat my disappointment, which would lead me to being depressed cause I did that, and the depression would lead to more eating which leads to less exercise and then I'd give up.

NOT THIS TIME.  I CAN'T.  I WON'T!  I'm only 10lbs away from what I was on my wedding day and I WANT IT!  I WILL HAVE IT!


Have I convinced you yet?  I'm really trying to psych myself up here. 

Eat Healthy, Get Fit, Sleep, Repeat

Thursday, September 27, 2012


Yes, I'm dreading tomorrow's weigh in.  I shot this week's work all to hell yesterday.  And yes I'm right back on the wagon today, but after the sodium and carb infested day on Wed and my inability to eat normal portions of food yesterday, I'm not expecting the scale to move at all tomorrow!

Especially since I didn't get a work out in this morning (I'm really not happy about this and it wasn't my fault) and not being able to squeeze it in tonight since B is out of town and it's bowling night.  It's gonna be a get home, pray I can get dinner made and the kids fed before I have to leave for bowling.  Oh yeah and me fed too so that I'm not eating crap at the bowling alley!

Wish me luck.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Pushing, Underwear, Sodium & Carbs

Like the title?  It's really just some random stuff that was running through my mind this morning as I was working out.  Pick your chin up off the ground, it's not that amazing that I did a full work out!

For some reason this week I've decided I want to push myself with my runs.  The interval running I've been pushing myself with the interval running I've been doing since 6mph is FAST for me.  But I didn't feel like I was pushing enough.  So yesterday instead of intervals I wanted to see if I could run at 5mph for an extended time.  I did it!  12 minutes at 5mph.  I'm pretty sure I was only going 4.5 last time ran for any extended amount of time.  Then this morning I decided to go for 5.5mph.  Yeah that was a little fast, but I did it for 5 minutes! and then I continued on with my normal interval and felt better when I was done.  And also my pace was under 12 minutes!!!  My goal is to have an average pace of around 11 so since I plan on sticking with just a 20 minute run for a while I'm going to keep working on my pace.

I'm having issues.  Seems my ass is shrinking!  Sounds great, but it means my underwear is getting lose in the ass, which means that when I run it moves around, scrunches up and whatever else I can't quite find the words to explain.  Now, I have underwear that still fit, but I get dressed for the day after my shower, which is after my morning workout.  Like most people (I'm making an assumption here) I wear the same underwear until I get in the shower again the next morning.  So I end up with issues.  Just had to vent about that...

Sodium & Carbs...
SUCK!  I ate so good yesterday!  I had over 1000 calories left for dinner and all I had was a seasoned pork chop and some stuffing.  OK, it was probably 2 servings of stuffing, but either way, I had 1000 cals left (not counting my exercise cals).  Plus I drank almost 100oz of water.  What did I wake up to this morning, a gain on the scale...  Then I remembered telling my mom the chops were a little salty tasting.  So yeah, I have a love hate relationship with sodium and carbs right now.

Now that you've read all my rambling, get off your ass and do something!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

In My Head

So apparently the post I wrote yesterday was only in my head... For some reason I honestly thought I posted yesterday.  The post was something like this....

Back at it... I picked up right where I left off.  As tired and miserable as I am, right now my exercise and eating is the only thing I have control over, so I'm going to own that bitch!

Today, well I'm still owning her, just not as forcefully as yesterday.  Baby girl was up up from around 10 (I think) til almost 1 this morning.  I got up at 4:30 and still did my run.  Rather than doing the interval training I have been doing with Workout 1, I decided to just do the warm up, run the 12 minutes at 5mph and the cool down.  I had to push myself through my exhaustion, but in the end I did it and probably could have gone farther if I had the time.  I was also happy to see that I had my fastest 1K ever this morning according to Nike+.

It's amazing what a little work out and watching what you eat can do in just a day.  I was down 1.6lb in just a day! *Don't give me shit for weighing myself daily, right now it gives me motivation*

Now stop reading about my small successes and go have your own!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Weigh In - Memory Loss

Well I didn't even want to post this morning.  As I said yesterday I knew it wasn't a good week.  Secretly I was praying for one of those, "it wasn't as bad as I thought" mornings, but it was...
That's a gain of 2.2lbs.  I accept full responsibility with no excuses besides I used to many all week.  Normally this is where I'd fall off the wagon.  I haven't worked out in a week now and haven't paid much attention to what I've been eating.  At least not the way I should be.  And I certainly haven't drank all the water I should.  But starting TODAY! I am going to do better!  I'm going to plan my meals better, I'm going to drink more water and I'm going to GET OFF MY ASS!  Who's with me?

Ok, so I might not actually exercise today since I still feel like ass, but I am going to be much more conscious about what is going in my mouth and try to plan my meals for next week.  And the water has already started flowing, even though what I really want is some nice hot creamy coffee to soothe my throat.

I hate being sick, my mind just gets all cloudy and I can't remember shit.  I had a plan as to what I was going to post about today along with my weight and I can't for the life of me remember what it was now.
I hate that puckered look cause their too big!
On the plus side, I've had to wear a belt all week because the clothes that fit me just 3 weeks ago are falling off!  See that big red number up there doesn't mean much, just means I need to be careful.

Have a healthy weekend everyone!

Thursday, September 20, 2012

My Turn

Well now I've got this damn cold.  So much so that I almost didn't get out of bed at all this morning.  I don't remember hitting snooze for a half hour and I certainly don't remember B taking Lilli out of the bed last night. I passed out at 7:30 last night and that was it.

I'm not looking forward to getting on the scale tomorrow morning.  I'm pretty sure there is going to be a gain :-(  It's my own fault though,  I could have tried harder this week.  I could have made myself work out when I got home since I couldn't in the morning.  I could have made myself bring a salad or sandwich for lunch every day.  I could have made better choices, but I didn't and tomorrow I will step on that scale and I will post my weight...

That is if I can get my ass out of bed...

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Not Much

Not much to write about today since B slept on the couch again, which meant more sleep no work out for me!

I really need to find motivation in the morning when I need it and can use it, not while I'm sitting here at my desk at work!

So this morning I updated My Story.  You should check it out.  I added a bunch of pictures.

I also added some new inspiration to the Inspiration page!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

This and That.

This post is going to be a little random. I'm exhausted and my mind just isn't putting things together.

First I want to start with a big "hey y'all" to my new followers!  Hope I don't bore you too much and maybe even inspire you a little (probably not with this suck ass post though).

If I'm honest I could have eaten better this weekend. Wing dip, pizza and peach cobbler doesn't add up to pounds lost :-(

Neither does my lack of exercise.  Although, my arm and ab muscles are still a little sore from having to sleep sitting up with a 16.5lb baby in them for 2 nights and 2 days earth of naps.

Which led to yesterday's lack if exercise because I was so exhausted. 5 hours of sleep in 2 days just isn't enough.

And now the hubster has a man cold. Ok its a cold and he really feels like shit so he's sleeping in the couch so he doesn't get anyone else sick, but really I can do without the moaning every 30 seconds. Anyway, this led me to not working out this morning too because I work out in the livingroom where he was sleeping.  Not that I was disappointed since baby girl had me up 2 hours past my bed time.

So there you have, this girl needs a swift kick in the ass!

Friday, September 14, 2012

Week 19 Weigh In

A little recap of this week…

Sunday I ate like a pig, shoveling greasy, cheesy, hot sausage dip yumminess into my mouth uncontrollably.  I even sat across the room from it and it was beckoning me… really, it was saying “Brandi, eat me… eat me… just one more bite…”  Yeah not my finest moment, but damn it was good!

Monday was a hectic day and besides having a second burger (no buns) I didn’t do too bad with my eating.

Tuesday was a shitastic day and although I brought a nice healthy lunch to work, I let my mom treat me to Mexican, it was so yummy and I ate too much, but damn, we hadn’t gone out for Mexican in forever!  Then it was pork chops and potatoes for dinner with some really yummy sautéed veggies.

Wednesday I was a good girl, but

Thursday, well Thursdays are tough.  I drank 7, yes that s-e-v-e-n 24oz glasses of water!  
I use a dry erase marker to mark every time I finish a glass.
 And then I followed it up with at least a pitcher of beer at bowling last night.  Oh and did I mention we had spaghetti for dinner too?

What did I do right this week you ask, well I got my ass out of bed and did Workout 1 EVERY DAY!  Including today even though when I woke up my brain said “you are tired, go back to bed, your head hurts, go back to bed.”  I refused!  When I did my run, the little devil on my shoulder said “if you can’t run the 2 minutes at 6, it’s ok, you’re a little off this morning.” But that sweatband, spandex wearing (think 80’s workout clothes all hot pink and neon yellow) said “Bitch run!  That was last night and this is today!”  and guess what, she was right!  I did my entire workout to the max and man can my muscles feel it!  That’s right, I have muscles, muscles you can see!
Yes I know they still need work...

So anyway, my hard work paid off…

Down another 1.4!  It dawned on me today that I’ve over half way to my goal now!  And only 3lbs away from a number I haven’t seen in almost 5 years! 
Feeling good about myself this week.
My "feeling skinny"outfit (in yellow)
is now my "feeling fat" outfit!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012


Yes and no...

Yes I've been slacking with blogging...
Yes I've slacked on my eating...
No I haven't slacked on my exercise...

I'm down, not really weight related, but I do think it's being effected.  Maybe I should have titled this blog "Eating my Moods and Emotions..."  Today I am regretting how relaxed I was with my eating on Sunday, the last two days wouldn't seem so bad if I hadn't been so bad Sunday.  Anyway, I can't dwell on it because I've already consumed the yummy ass fattening food.  I still have a chance at maintaining this week.

I've created my own routine though and it seems to be working pretty well.  I've been a little sore most days.  For Reference purposes I've going to call it Workout One, cause well, it's the first workout I've come up with on my own.
Itty Bits of Balance
I started by using this Running Workout.  Then I realized that I run at a snails pace so I had to modify it for myself.

Workout One
20 Minute as follows: Holy crap does this get my heart going!

Bicep Curls in the squat position - I get in the squat position as low as I can. Feet hip width apart making sure the knees never go over the toes.
Holding this position I do 12 bicep curls.  Arms down at sides, palms facing forward, raise palms to shoulders, lower.

Raised Bicep Curls in the Sumo squat position - "sumo squat" is shown to the left, then I raise my arms parallel with the floor, palms up and bring weights to my shoulders and back to the starting position, repeat 12 times.

Butterfly with a held pelvic curl (butt lift) - Lay on the floor, knees bent, feet flat on the floor.  Raise your butt up in the air and hold.  Tighten the glutes and abs.  Hold arms out to the sides, palm up.  In a steady motion bring weights together over your chest and then back to starting position.  Repeat 12 times.

Bench Press with help pelvic curl (butt lift) - Stay on the floor in the pelvic curl position.  Keeps arms out to the sides, bent 90 degrees at elbows, palms facing your feet.  Push weights straight up and return to starting position.  Repeat 12 times.

Bicycle Crunch - 30 total (15 each side)

Repeat Strength 3 times.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Check me out!

I'm feeling honored.

Ashleigh over at Life in Bloom has featured my story along with 2 other inspiring ladies!  Head on over and check us out!

Life in Bloom: It's All About You - Part 2

Friday, September 7, 2012

Weigh in and Shred Results

Since last night was the first night if bowling I was really nervous about getting on the scale this morning.   We all know what beer can do to a weigh in. Although I was good last night, drank water through the 3rd game.

Drum roll please... 184.4!  That's right, my biggest loss in over a month!  And I'm now down a total of 30 lbs!  Yes I'm a happy girl today.

Now for my shred results...

I've been nervous to take pics. I know my clothes are fitting better and I'm shrinking out of some is them, but I didn't know how noticeable it would be. So what so you think?

I also need to complain a little. My husband sucks with a camera!  Hence the horrible quality of pics above  Which make him being the one to take my pictures frustrating to me. It also frustrates me that he doesn't understand why they are so important to me. Important we stand in the same spots and use the same zoom and such. I hate having to adjust the size of the pics so that my body is the same height in them.

I'm also thinking about adding an exercise journal tab. Would my wonderful readers be interested in knowing what exercises I'm doing on a daily basis?

Now get off your ass and burn some calories! 

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Pinspired Dinner

Buffalo Chicken Casserole

My Creation

I made this meal a 6 serving dish and each serving only had 314 calories and plenty of flavor!

You can find the full recipe here
I liked that the chicken isn't pre-cooked and prep was minimal besides grating the potatoes.
The only thing I might change next time is using noodles instead of potatoes, or maybe pre-cooking the potatoes some.

If you'd like to follow my me on Pinterest, you can find me here.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012


I can’t believe Thursday is going to be day 30 of the 30 Day Shred!  This is the first workout with a time line that I think I’ve actually stuck with.  Even the C25K in the end I didn’t do that last 2 weeks of training, but still ended being able to run the 30 minutes.  And yes, it may have actually taken me 36 days, but that’s besides the point.

Saturday I got so busy around the house I actually forgot to work out.  I know sounds crazy, but by the time I realized I hadn’t worked out yet, it was bed time.  I spent the entire day going through my clothes in the closet and cooking.  Lots of up and down, on and off.

Sunday I busted my ass at the workout.  I pushed myself and felt good about it, I was weak when I was done.  But as the day went on my shoulder got sore and yesterday it felt like it was on the verge of either being a pulled muscle or a pinched nerve again.  I didn’t want to risk it.  Plus my arms still felt like jello.  B reminded me that you can push yourself too hard and that’s not good either.

So today I slowed myself down and focused on my form.  I hadn’t really been focusing so much on form as I was trying to push myself to get the most calories I could out of the workout.  This morning though I realized more of my muscles actually felt effected.  I’m wondering if my overall results would have been better if I had focused more on my form than on my ability to keep up.  I’m hoping my results are going to be better than what I think they are from seeing myself from day to day in the mirror.

In other “form” words, I’m not so embarrassed to wear form fitting clothes anymore.  In other words, I actually HAVE a form other than round!  The 3 adults I saw this morning on my way to work (hubby, sitter 1 and sitter 2) all complimented me and said some variation of “You look good today.”  This pleased me.  I haven’t really dressed up for work in quite some time, although since coming back after Laney was born my dress has been more professional that hoodies and jeans.

It's hard to see but the skirt has small white and brown lines in it.

Friday, August 31, 2012

Week 17

I think once I finish the 30 Day Shred I'm going to re-evaluate things.  I'm not sure if I need to lower my calories by a couple hundred a day or if my lower losses are coming from just not exercising the way I was before I started the 30DS, but it needs to pick back up again.  This flabby shit needs to come off!

I was only down another .6 today.  Granted its .6 I'd rather be down that up, but it's still frustrating.  Overall from Aug 1 to Aug 31 I lost 4.2 pounds, so that's good.  And I'm only 2.2lbs away from a total loss of 30lbs! Great right?

I am going to be happy with this loss since I did eat horribly for 4 of the 7 days and I'm going to move on to the next week!  I have to, life is going to keep moving so I must too.  We don't have any big plans for the holiday weekend so I am going to try super hard to stay on track with my food and have a nice healthy loss next week. But if some one wanted to pour a few too many beers, mixed drinks, whatever down my throat, I won't fight you!

I did forget to mention is my obsession with food yesterday, that I moved up to 5lb weights for my workout. Holy shit can I feel it.  I wanted to put them down during the second set of punches today, but I didn't, I pushed through it!  I can feel that I have been pushing myself more again.  My quads are sore and my arms are weak!  Oh yeah and twice this week I've opted to carry a 30+ lb box to the building next door rather than using a cart to push it!  My safety department probably wouldn't be too proud, but I don't really care, I knew I could do it!

Here's a question for you, can anyone really do those jumping lunges?  I can't do it, I fall over just about every time.  Maybe it's because my balance isn't all that good first thing in the morning?

I can't believe I'm only 4 days away from completing it!  I think this is truly the first program I have followed through from beginning to end.  Maybe because it's in 10 day sections?

Thursday, August 30, 2012


Seems all my blogging is about food today!

I might be just a little a lot obsessed.

It all started one day when I forgot to bring a snack to work.  I went down to the cafeteria and there was the greatest looking strawberry and yogurt parfait, with the granola in a separate container on the top!  It was D-Lish-US!

So I had them several days and then realized they were most likely using regular yogurt, not non-fat and I had no idea how many calories the granola had.  Then I remember I had some granola I bought a while back and decided to make my own.  O.M.G.

1 cup Strawberries, sliced
3/4 Cup Fit & Active Vanilla Yogurt
1/4 Cup Bear Naked Vanilla Almond Granola

278 calories!  And so filling!

I ran out of granola and went to buy more and guess what!  There are a million kinds out there.  I got the Peanut Butter and the Pumpkin kinds because my new favorite parfait is banana!

The banana with the peanut better is A-MAZE-ING!

Maybe this weekend I can get out the ingredient to that one and give the calories and such. (see I've been bad about logging them)  I'm pretty sure it's right around 300 though, the perfect breakfast!  It's also helping me get my dairy in without so much cheese, I <3 cheese.

Tomorrow is weigh in day...

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Well, Almost


I had two plates of salad that looked like this (only 1.5 bread sticks) and I caved and had a piece of pizza, it was a small pie so I'm estimating the slice was maybe 300 calories.  Since before dinner I had only consumed about 800 calories I don't feel all that bad about the pizza.

Post Workout:

I can't even tell you how many times I had already wiped my face.  I don't know if I pushed myself hard enough with in the arms, but my quads are feeling it and my back.  I hate that it's other parts of my body that give out before the abs do in the abs parts.  Like the leg crosses kill my quads, not my abs.

And here I am looking all good today.  Ok, not one of my favorite outfits, but I'm happy to say that the pants are a size 16 and start falling down when I walk!!! (I started this journey in a rather tight size 20!

PS I love long skinny mirrors!  But I'm starting to not hate my big wide mirror in the bathroom so much. (who puts a huge wide mirror right on the wall next to the shower so you can look at your gross naked body EVERY time you get in?  I certainly didn't put it there, but I did leave it.)