Weekly Weigh In

    Well I think this is going to be my last Weekly Weigh in on this blog, but more about that in a minute…

I didn’t really know what I was expecting this week on the scale, but it certainly wasn’t what I saw…

182.8

That’s right, a gain of 2.8lbs.  I really don’t think it’s all actual fat, but more water weight.  Still, it’s not good.  I’m not happy about and it makes my emotional status from the last week even worse.

My emotions have been up and down.  I have felt discourage and defeated and then felt accomplishment and pride.  I’ve felt tired and moody and then excited and energized all in the same day.  It’s been a roller coaster of a week and this morning was just an awful end to that.  I was exhausted when I got up, but I did get up, I did put on my workout clothes and my running shoes.  I did my warm up, ran less than a minute and gave up.  I walked a few minutes and then felt like it was pointless and shut’er down.  I stood there leaning on the treadmill fighting with myself.  Asking myself why it is so hard today? Why can’t you push yourself?  What the hell is wrong with your mood, you know you’ll feel better if you run?

But I just couldn’t do it.  I lost the battle this morning.  Although I feel like crap inside today, I think I look pretty good outside (besides my hair, mad do I need to get it done).

I look better in this dress now than when I bought it!

I have decided that this weekend is being dedicated to 2 things.  1. My disaster of a house and 2. Making a meal plan for a week with extra meal ideas for a month.  

On Monday I will start tracking EVERYTHING again.  I need to, it’s how I started and it worked!  Hopefully while making out my meal plan I can write down the calories per serving of each so when it comes to tracking it’s just a matter of actually measuring the food.

I might all have a few dates with Jillian every week again.  I want to keep running, but I need to get more strength training in there.  I need to work on the core muscles harder.

As for this being my last weigh in on this blog… It’s because as of Monday I will be posting at Mamas-Losing-It.com  Feel free to head on over and take a peak.  I’m sure it will be changing some in the months to come, but I’m very excited to have it up and running.  In addition to writing about my weight loss, I will be writing about my family life, my kids and life in general.