I haven't had motivation in a couple of weeks and it bothers me. It's not that I'm not losing weight and its not that I don't want to do better, its just an emotional thing that I really can't put my finger on. It's even been difficult for me to eat right for some reason. Now when I don't feel I put forth enough effort or eat something I shouldn't have, I get upset with myself, I scold myself and tell myself I need to do better.
The problem is, what is done, is done. There are very few days that I can get in some extra exercise because I didn't do enough in the morning. And let's face it, I can't un-eat that slice of pizza. *well I could, but that's gross and even more unhealthy*
My problem is that I can't seem to carry these feelings over to the next day.
This morning, after being down on myself for a few days (even upset yesterday because I was almost 1000 calories short - a whole other topic on why it's bad), and getting my first full nights sleep this week, I ran for 20 minutes! While not as long as I'd like it to have been, I still need to push to improve, I'm so glad I did it, even though I wasn't feeling motivated.
When I woke up to my alarm this morning (and not a crying baby) I was shocked and only hit snooze once *anyone who has their alarm set for 3:30 am deserves at least 1 snooze* I had a slight headache and wasn't sure I really wanted to run. Right now while running on the treadmill I need something to distract me. Without a destination I'm running to I find it difficult to keep up my energy and keep going. I almost gave in and did a video, but a video isn't going to improve my running distance like I want to do. So I told myself "suck it up and get your ass on the treadmill, you will be glad you did later." I did my 5 minute warm up walk (which I'm proud to say is .5 mph faster than what it was when I started running 2 months ago) and then I kicked up the speed by a 1mph and ran. After 5 minutes I just wanted it to be over, after 10 minutes and Smurfs ending *There isn't much but infomercials on at 4am* I decided that I just needed to break that sweat barrier and I'd be fine. You know that point where go from being warm to dripping with sweat, I hate that transition for some reason* After 15 minutes I said "Hell you can go another 5" and as each of those last 5 minutes passed I kept telling myself "you get to walk longer than you have left of running." (I do a 5 minute cool down) and for the last minute I decided I needed to push a little and bumped my speed up by a few tenths of a mile.
I didn't get the runner's high this morning, but I am happy that I ran and put forth much more effort than I have been.
Now I need to plan out the next two weeks that are going to be very busy with family gatherings, graduation parties, BBQs and camping!
The problem is, what is done, is done. There are very few days that I can get in some extra exercise because I didn't do enough in the morning. And let's face it, I can't un-eat that slice of pizza. *well I could, but that's gross and even more unhealthy*
My problem is that I can't seem to carry these feelings over to the next day.
This morning, after being down on myself for a few days (even upset yesterday because I was almost 1000 calories short - a whole other topic on why it's bad), and getting my first full nights sleep this week, I ran for 20 minutes! While not as long as I'd like it to have been, I still need to push to improve, I'm so glad I did it, even though I wasn't feeling motivated.
When I woke up to my alarm this morning (and not a crying baby) I was shocked and only hit snooze once *anyone who has their alarm set for 3:30 am deserves at least 1 snooze* I had a slight headache and wasn't sure I really wanted to run. Right now while running on the treadmill I need something to distract me. Without a destination I'm running to I find it difficult to keep up my energy and keep going. I almost gave in and did a video, but a video isn't going to improve my running distance like I want to do. So I told myself "suck it up and get your ass on the treadmill, you will be glad you did later." I did my 5 minute warm up walk (which I'm proud to say is .5 mph faster than what it was when I started running 2 months ago) and then I kicked up the speed by a 1mph and ran. After 5 minutes I just wanted it to be over, after 10 minutes and Smurfs ending *There isn't much but infomercials on at 4am* I decided that I just needed to break that sweat barrier and I'd be fine. You know that point where go from being warm to dripping with sweat, I hate that transition for some reason* After 15 minutes I said "Hell you can go another 5" and as each of those last 5 minutes passed I kept telling myself "you get to walk longer than you have left of running." (I do a 5 minute cool down) and for the last minute I decided I needed to push a little and bumped my speed up by a few tenths of a mile.
I didn't get the runner's high this morning, but I am happy that I ran and put forth much more effort than I have been.
Now I need to plan out the next two weeks that are going to be very busy with family gatherings, graduation parties, BBQs and camping!
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